Thoughts On: John 6:15

Perceiving then that they were about to come and take him by force to make him king, Jesus withdrew again to the mountain by himself.

John 6:15

Somehow I got caught up in all the things that don't matter. I took the job of my dreams, and immediately people began to ask me what I wanted to do next. Where would I get my Masters degree? Am I going to plant a church or be a megachurch Pastor? How is it I'm so comfortable in the same old place I grew up in? The questions kept rolling in, and me being me, I let them tip me over. I let those questions tell me to stop being content. I let them force me into thinking I had massive things to do - things I needed to figure out, now. And somehow I forgot that I already have the job I want, and that it is exactly enough.

I did not clump these last two verses in with the story of Jesus multiplying the bread because I immediately knew they held a separate truth for this season of my life. The lie hit me square in the face, that Jesus came to make a name for himself. It's not true. When they sought to make him King, he instead slipped into the hills to pray. They sought to crown him and drown him in glory, and still he knew his mission. Still he remembered who he was. 

The truth is that Christ is humble. He knows where he is supposed to be, and he stays there until it is time to move. He doesn't get ahead of himself or ask for what he "deserves." He deserved everything, and instead he served. He got low and busied himself with the people that no one else seemed to notice or care about, and he did it with grace and confidence. 

I want to do the same, and not out of obligation this time. Somehow, the dream of getting my hands dirty, of being humble, has begun to surpass the dreams of grandeur and global impact. I want the small things, now - to meet with one student for tea, to laugh with friends over inside jokes, to write even if I never get published. I'm starting to crave the humble life - I'm starting to like it better.